i dont understand why i cant just get over the fact that i have never really had a boyfriend that meets my standards of a relationship today.
sure i have had someone i saw everyday and texted nonstop and gave me butterflys everytime i was with them.
doesnt mean that after it was over and they fucked up that i still considered it healthy for me.
i told myself i would never let someone treat me how i have been treated since i started dating.
probablly why i cant handle someone liking me because all i do is push them away or lead them on but i dont do it to be that person that fucks with people.
no i am not a swinger.
and yes i really am i good person.
the truth is i just havent feelings for anyone that has liked me.
its always the guy that doesnt like me back that i want so badly, and it tears my mind apart.
not to mention the fact that most of these guys keep me a secret from their friends.
as of yesterday my wifey told me that i need to stop looking and just relax.
i just hate not knowing whats going to happen next..